Happy Easter everyone. Today was the day that Jesus Christ walked on this earth for a second time.
It really does amaze me, to think about the different things so many people have gone through. Our Grandparents for example; I know both of my Grandfathers were in World War II. I remember asking one of them about their experiences, and as he was telling me about it, you could see the wisdom and knowledge shining through his eyes. I love history, even the smallest but oldest of things have so much history. When I was talking to my dad about my Grandpa Holland, he got out this old box he used to take with him. Inside were so many coins, and news paper clipping, everything you could imagine. There was a Continental Dollar in there, I think it was about 320 years old. Just imagine how many people have carried that coin, how many people used that to feed their families. I think that is just so awsome. There was a article cut out, and it really was, almost inspiring, here it is:
Just for Today I will live through the next
12 hours and not tackle my whole life problems at once.
Just for Today I will improve my mind. I
will learn something useful. I will read something
that requires effort, thought and concentration.
Just for Today I will be agreeable. I will look my
best, speak in a well modulated voice, be courteous and considerate
Just for Today I will not find fault with friend,
relative or colleague. I will not try to change
or improve anyone but myself.
Just for Today I will exercise my character in
three ways. I will do a good turn and keep it a secret.
It and one finds out, it won’t count.
Just for Today I will have a program. I might not follow
it exactly, but I will have it. I will save myself from
two enemies – Hurry and indecision.
Just for Today I will do two things I don’t want to
do, just for exercise.
Just for Today I will be unafraid. Especially will I
be unafraid to enjoy what is beautiful and believe
that as I give to the world, the world will be a better place.
Have a Happy Easter! May you day be perfect, and beautiful.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
God Bless Terri
People say that your childhood "prepares you for you adult life" but it doesnt. It's a whole different life. People grow up and change and are never the same.
I know most of you that go through and read these blogs, thrive from others words. Like if a person complains about how bad their life is, that makes you feel better about youself; thinking since you aren't going through that you're automatically the better person. I'm just... I'm tired. I feel like I have been used to know end. I feel like there is no one to talk to, no one that will truly listen, and relate to what I'm saying. The things around me are changing so fast, and I'm not ready for it. I'm desperatly trying to hold onto what's already gone, and when it's gone completley, I'm not going to know what to do. I'm so afraid of change. My friends and I aren't really friends anymore, they've become people that I don't even want to be around. I just feel so lost, nothing I used to like doing gives me happiness anymore. I'm pretty much just dragging through everything.
What is life? How is it that someone could treat someone else so horribly when their life is in their hands? If you were lying in a bed for 15 years, without the capability of moving, talking and just about everything else; would you want to die? That girl, Terri, that has been lying there for 15 years. I think it is so horrible to do that to someone. They are making her starve and dehydrate to fucking death. How the hell could you sit and watch, someone as beautiful as that, rot to death in a bed. When I think of that girl, I break out into tears. I think its fucking sick to do that, no matter the persons capability. Its torture, thats what it is. Those people don't know what shes going through, they don't know whats going through her head. How could they possibly do that to another human being?
Keep your face to the sunshine and you will not see the shadows, you only live once....but if you live it right, once is enough.
God bless Terri.
I know most of you that go through and read these blogs, thrive from others words. Like if a person complains about how bad their life is, that makes you feel better about youself; thinking since you aren't going through that you're automatically the better person. I'm just... I'm tired. I feel like I have been used to know end. I feel like there is no one to talk to, no one that will truly listen, and relate to what I'm saying. The things around me are changing so fast, and I'm not ready for it. I'm desperatly trying to hold onto what's already gone, and when it's gone completley, I'm not going to know what to do. I'm so afraid of change. My friends and I aren't really friends anymore, they've become people that I don't even want to be around. I just feel so lost, nothing I used to like doing gives me happiness anymore. I'm pretty much just dragging through everything.
What is life? How is it that someone could treat someone else so horribly when their life is in their hands? If you were lying in a bed for 15 years, without the capability of moving, talking and just about everything else; would you want to die? That girl, Terri, that has been lying there for 15 years. I think it is so horrible to do that to someone. They are making her starve and dehydrate to fucking death. How the hell could you sit and watch, someone as beautiful as that, rot to death in a bed. When I think of that girl, I break out into tears. I think its fucking sick to do that, no matter the persons capability. Its torture, thats what it is. Those people don't know what shes going through, they don't know whats going through her head. How could they possibly do that to another human being?
Keep your face to the sunshine and you will not see the shadows, you only live once....but if you live it right, once is enough.
God bless Terri.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
7 At Solo and Ensemble
Its only 6 o'clock and I am so tired, I could pass out sitting in this chair.
This morning I had to get up at 5:30, to go to States for Solo and Ensemble. We kinda sucked, I kept screwing up. We got a 2, so I guess thats okay; I kept telling everyone we were going to get a 7, but McBride kept telling me we couldnt, but I told him the judge next door head us and though we sounded ok (the sound was muffled by the wall). Wow though, Chelsea High School was so huge! From our warm up room to performance room was like a damn mile. The woman that was leading us was like sprinting there, so Alex and I were trying to run after her in heels. Our judge was a bit of a spaz. He was out of control, he had us play a section and was singing it as we played, like singing loud and obnoxiously. I was doing everything I could to not crack up laughing when I was playing.
Guess what?! We may be getting another horse! My parents have been talking about 'Quiet Spark' one of the CANTER horses out at the barn. He's so pretty! Hes a monster, he towers over Nightingale, and hes a pretty blood chesnut color. But he is so sweet when you're in the stall with him, on the outside though; he lays his ears back and looks mean. I'm pretty excited, because I really want another horse.
Yay for me, I've finally got a more than one day a week job! I now work two days a week!! Seeing how I can't drive yet, my brother has to take me to the barn. I workout Mondays, ride and 4-H Tuesdays, Thursday my brother has class, Friday I workout again. So that leaves Wednesday after school to clean small barn. I'm excited, I love being out at the barn and FINALLY spring is comming, so everything is going to turn green; and it'll start warming up.
Tonight I'm going to Kerry's party. I don't want to because Olivia and Emily are going to be there, yeah long story of why my feelings are changing; but I'm not getting into it right now. I would so rather chill out at home and sleep, cause I'm so tired. But since like Chad and Travis, Johnny, Sarah and everyone's gonna be there I decided it would be fun. I'll just avoid them at all costs ^-^.
Becca. Monday. Project. Maybe. Cause after we workout I'm getting my nails done!!! My appointment is at uh, 5:15. It takes about an hour to get them done so... I dunno >.< If Monday doesnt work out, Thursday! I have nothing going on then!
Tschüs!
This morning I had to get up at 5:30, to go to States for Solo and Ensemble. We kinda sucked, I kept screwing up. We got a 2, so I guess thats okay; I kept telling everyone we were going to get a 7, but McBride kept telling me we couldnt, but I told him the judge next door head us and though we sounded ok (the sound was muffled by the wall). Wow though, Chelsea High School was so huge! From our warm up room to performance room was like a damn mile. The woman that was leading us was like sprinting there, so Alex and I were trying to run after her in heels. Our judge was a bit of a spaz. He was out of control, he had us play a section and was singing it as we played, like singing loud and obnoxiously. I was doing everything I could to not crack up laughing when I was playing.
Guess what?! We may be getting another horse! My parents have been talking about 'Quiet Spark' one of the CANTER horses out at the barn. He's so pretty! Hes a monster, he towers over Nightingale, and hes a pretty blood chesnut color. But he is so sweet when you're in the stall with him, on the outside though; he lays his ears back and looks mean. I'm pretty excited, because I really want another horse.
Yay for me, I've finally got a more than one day a week job! I now work two days a week!! Seeing how I can't drive yet, my brother has to take me to the barn. I workout Mondays, ride and 4-H Tuesdays, Thursday my brother has class, Friday I workout again. So that leaves Wednesday after school to clean small barn. I'm excited, I love being out at the barn and FINALLY spring is comming, so everything is going to turn green; and it'll start warming up.
Tonight I'm going to Kerry's party. I don't want to because Olivia and Emily are going to be there, yeah long story of why my feelings are changing; but I'm not getting into it right now. I would so rather chill out at home and sleep, cause I'm so tired. But since like Chad and Travis, Johnny, Sarah and everyone's gonna be there I decided it would be fun. I'll just avoid them at all costs ^-^.
Becca. Monday. Project. Maybe. Cause after we workout I'm getting my nails done!!! My appointment is at uh, 5:15. It takes about an hour to get them done so... I dunno >.< If Monday doesnt work out, Thursday! I have nothing going on then!
Tschüs!
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Cats included
I have planned out my future!
It all starts with me finding this old, rusty trailor. You know lik the ancient ones that are silver and round. Yeah, anyway, I'm going to live on the side of the highway in my trailor, with 20 cats, my friend Jessica - and Becca in the box next to the trailor. Well we've all got it figured out (since were never going to get married or get boyfriends), in the winter were going to go to Flordia, to Disneyworld. Then in the summer were going to go the Cedar Point! But the only bad part about it is... well Becca is going to die. Yeah, well since her box has wheels, she just gets in her box when we travel, but I'm going get a flat tire, and shes going to go flying out of her box and get hit by a truck driver - thinking she's a deer. Poor Becca.. *snickers*.
So yeah! Thats my all-time-toatlly-awsome future!
Highschool toatlly sucks, we've got like 4 projects going on in a bunch of classes. It sucks, but I can't complain that much - since I HAVE to get them done either way, or i get to take the same classes over again next year. Guess What?! I have finally found a new guy to become obsessed with! Olivia and Emily would toatlly kill me for it, but hes in our science class. He was in mine and Olivias health class in the beginning - but yah know, he wasn't interesting then. Yeah, he sits behind Emily (toatlly gives it away) but thats okay! I'll go more into detail and all that later.
Interesting fact of the day- Becca finally announced... long and behold, that she is a man!! I have proof!
Becca- alright... i admit it.
IM A MAN
*laughs at hilary's dad* that guy is so demented haha
(my dad laughed and said that I might be talking to a guy online and we've been laughing about it ever since!)
Mmk I'm done, I've got to go find some chow before I go out and ride my horse.
Ta for now!
R.I.P. My dads van, which died on the way home LOL!
Oh and Calvin wants me to put him in here so uh, yeah there! Hi Calvin! Remember you make me PUKE! haha j/k
It all starts with me finding this old, rusty trailor. You know lik the ancient ones that are silver and round. Yeah, anyway, I'm going to live on the side of the highway in my trailor, with 20 cats, my friend Jessica - and Becca in the box next to the trailor. Well we've all got it figured out (since were never going to get married or get boyfriends), in the winter were going to go to Flordia, to Disneyworld. Then in the summer were going to go the Cedar Point! But the only bad part about it is... well Becca is going to die. Yeah, well since her box has wheels, she just gets in her box when we travel, but I'm going get a flat tire, and shes going to go flying out of her box and get hit by a truck driver - thinking she's a deer. Poor Becca.. *snickers*.
So yeah! Thats my all-time-toatlly-awsome future!
Highschool toatlly sucks, we've got like 4 projects going on in a bunch of classes. It sucks, but I can't complain that much - since I HAVE to get them done either way, or i get to take the same classes over again next year. Guess What?! I have finally found a new guy to become obsessed with! Olivia and Emily would toatlly kill me for it, but hes in our science class. He was in mine and Olivias health class in the beginning - but yah know, he wasn't interesting then. Yeah, he sits behind Emily (toatlly gives it away) but thats okay! I'll go more into detail and all that later.
Interesting fact of the day- Becca finally announced... long and behold, that she is a man!! I have proof!
Becca- alright... i admit it.
IM A MAN
*laughs at hilary's dad*
(my dad laughed and said that I might be talking to a guy online and we've been laughing about it ever since!)
Mmk I'm done, I've got to go find some chow before I go out and ride my horse.
Ta for now!
R.I.P. My dads van, which died on the way home LOL!
Oh and Calvin wants me to put him in here so uh, yeah there! Hi Calvin! Remember you make me PUKE! haha j/k
Monday, March 14, 2005
Forgotten Blog
Oh man I so havn't written in this in so long.
Okay, I'll start with follies! Follies was so much fun, when I finally get the pics ill post them on here, I looked so pretty! I went out to eat with Frannie, Ski and Christina. We went to this chinese place, it was so funny when we went in, everyone just kind of stopped and stared, I turned an ungodly shade of red at first, but finally got over it. The dance was alot of fun, I danced with all my friends and... er, I forgot the kid I danced with... Oh yeah, Jimmy Craig, he had horrible breath though lol.
Skip a bunch (cause I don't exactly remember what happened), last Friday, band festival (gag me). Yeah well we got all ones (hurray..) so now were going to states (oh boy..). Well someone got some hotdam since they figured we sucked, so why not have a good time. Haha, I drank like two big ones, I was so wired on the bus. I made a complete fool of myself, but thats okay - I was on the bus with the druggies.
This weekend is gonna be fun! Me and Olivia are going to have a 'Kinda-sorta-not-really-but-thats-ok-LAN-party-for-two'. Sounds exciting doesnt it? You know you wish you could come! Were going to have three TV's, one with DVD's playing then the other two with game systems hooked up. Its gonna be fun! But first I have to go to states for Solo and Ensemble (damn my talent). Then I have to work at the barn, and I probably should ride my horsie ... even though I havn't ridden her in a week- but thats okay!
Okay, I spose I'm done rambeling - Becca I'm going to drag you to work out with us Friday, and obviously I finally updated so you can comment ^-^, Frannie - You're mean, Joe - I miss you desperatly.... Hannah - I'm the better cutter... and so on and so forth with all those people I suppose I call friends >=P, haha j/k. Okay, now I really am done. Ta!
Okay, I'll start with follies! Follies was so much fun, when I finally get the pics ill post them on here, I looked so pretty! I went out to eat with Frannie, Ski and Christina. We went to this chinese place, it was so funny when we went in, everyone just kind of stopped and stared, I turned an ungodly shade of red at first, but finally got over it. The dance was alot of fun, I danced with all my friends and... er, I forgot the kid I danced with... Oh yeah, Jimmy Craig, he had horrible breath though lol.
Skip a bunch (cause I don't exactly remember what happened), last Friday, band festival (gag me). Yeah well we got all ones (hurray..) so now were going to states (oh boy..). Well someone got some hotdam since they figured we sucked, so why not have a good time. Haha, I drank like two big ones, I was so wired on the bus. I made a complete fool of myself, but thats okay - I was on the bus with the druggies.
This weekend is gonna be fun! Me and Olivia are going to have a 'Kinda-sorta-not-really-but-thats-ok-LAN-party-for-two'. Sounds exciting doesnt it? You know you wish you could come! Were going to have three TV's, one with DVD's playing then the other two with game systems hooked up. Its gonna be fun! But first I have to go to states for Solo and Ensemble (damn my talent). Then I have to work at the barn, and I probably should ride my horsie ... even though I havn't ridden her in a week- but thats okay!
Okay, I spose I'm done rambeling - Becca I'm going to drag you to work out with us Friday, and obviously I finally updated so you can comment ^-^, Frannie - You're mean, Joe - I miss you desperatly.... Hannah - I'm the better cutter... and so on and so forth with all those people I suppose I call friends >=P, haha j/k. Okay, now I really am done. Ta!
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