Moose

Horseback riding has been a huge part of my life for some time now, but thanks to life, crappy people, and insufficient funds, it no longer is. After a while it become a unanimous decision to sell Will. We went out yesterday to drop off food for him, and to take some pictures that we can send along to C.A.N.T.E.R. in hopes that they will buy him back. I really wasn’t affected with the thought of selling him, until I finally downloaded the pictures onto my computer. I regret not riding him every chance I got and I regret not being able to be around him more. I’ve had him for about two years, and he is still no further than when I bought him. Once again that feeling of failure threatens to come knocking at my door, but I have to remember everything that happened. It was as though all the signs were pointing in this direction over all these years, and I was just too blind to see it.

Whoops.

I was going to post something, but now that I'm on here. I don't really feel like it.

Ciao.

Shared sorrow is half sorrow, shared joy is double joy

I thought it was about time that I updated, though I really don’t have any thoughts going on. Well, that wouldn’t quite be the truth, but I always have been a bit of a liar. To be honest, I’m quite overwhelmed with school at the moment. Not because of homework, or tests, or anything actually “academic” but more for the reason that I still have to go everyday. I know schooling is going to be in my life for many more years to come, but high school is overstaying its welcome, and becoming a burden. I’m ready for something far more challenging than what I entail day after day. A new story, with an array of scenes, characters, tragedies, happy endings, and adventures alike.

Ellie and I went and got ice cream today after school. It was kind of a sudden thing, when she came strolling into my house, to find me in the back yard trying to persuade my dog into bringing his ball to me (Which ended up not quite working out. Damn dog.). We ended up going to Cold Stone in East Lansing, and got way too much ice cream. I swear we are both going to end up with diabetes. It was when we were on our way back, driving through campus, that I really started to believe that we could make it living together next year and starting college together. You know when you get those moments, where you feel like your life is exactly where it needs to be, and that overwhelming feeling of contentment takes over? I felt that today. Not having felt it in a while, and for the first time in a long time I felt happy.

There are days when I find myself feeling hopeless at the beginning, but they never seem to end in such a way.

"My best friends are the ones who bring out the best in me."