CAR! CAR! CAR!

Woo! This weekend has pretty much just been amazing.

Saturday I had to get up at 6:30 and head to work. I don't mind getting up early for that, because I actually LIKE my job. I enjoy going there, and what's ever better is I get paid to do it! Spent a half hour there, came home and tried to fall asleep again. Didn't really work out because my brain had already turned on for the day. So I wrote another poem for our English poetry slam:

Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
Something, something, something,
But something, something too.

How does this poem go,
Does one actually know?
I sit and I wonder if it really does finish,
if it has an ending just as bright as it’s beginning.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Roses soon wilt; their beauty short lived,
Violets turn brown and perish to the ground.
So how could the ending be as bright,
When this ending sees no light?

Could it be possible to stay in the beginning,
To stay where the beauty began?
Where the roses stay red,
Where the violets glow blue.
Where time doesn’t matter,
Just the things you do.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
God made them pretty,
But they shall soon die too.

It's not bad, I kinda like it. After that I waited around for dad to get ready so we could go look at this '93 Cougar. Finally Dad, Leo, and I went. We test drove it, and HOLY. SHIT. That car has some power. Dad decided he was going to race.... nothing. In the end.. we BOUGHT IT! WOOOO I'VE GOT A CAR! So, I told Kerry about it, and she made me this:



Haha I know right?

This is MY car:



The difference?

Gerard Way isn't in MY car :[ Maann........

Went to Meijers with Kerry. She bought a black snail for her brother, which she named Gary.



He ended up getting into a fight with all the white snails in her brothers tank. HE DID SURVIVE! HEEEEEEEE's ALLLIIIVVEEEEEEE!

Went out later that night with Karlie, McBride, Doug and Alaina. That was fun.

Got home at 1am. Passed out.

SUNDAY WAS FUN! Mom and I went to go get a Christmas tree. Got the best damn tree on the farm!

So yeah. That was it :D

Jaa Mata.

I guess I should update my life.

I can almost TASTE Christmas vacation. It's right on the tip of my tongue.

Where oh where to begin. I'm am very happy to say that I am dropping the Career Center at the semester. It took me a little while to decide if I actually wanted to go through with it, but I've never felt so much hatrid for one place. At first I was worried that my parents were going to yet again label me as a quitter, but I think they are as happy as I am with the decision. At least I got a taste of what it would be like if I ever went into nursing (which I believe I won't). I just have 16 more days left, and I'm OUT OF THERE! I missed my 'mock' interview today. Not that I give a rats ass.

Human Bio is getting better. Slowly. I think now that I have the weight of the Career Center off my shoudlers, I can focus more on other things. I got 36/35 on my last two quizzes. THATS RIGHT! TWO EXTRA CREDIT POINTS! I was really excited.

I finally got a job! I'm working at the Animal Medical Clinic, and just love it! Olivia basically got me the job, and for that I'm grateful. I get $7.oo an hour :D. I signed up to work Christmas eve and Christmas day and I get triple time. $21/hr! I'm really excited about it.

So we are looking for a car for me, and I never realized how obnoxious of a process it was. It went from a max of $2000, then to thinking about spending $3900. It also went from "Private dealers are the best" to "We should look at dealers" back to "Private sellers have the best deals." We're looking at a '93 Mercury Cougar. At first I didn't really like it, but I think it's growing on me. I found out it have almost double the horse power of my mom's 2005 f150. Meaning: I could smoke just about everyone in the school parking lot. Dad and I are going to go drive it this Saturday, and I really hope everything goes well.

Baah. I'm am slighly confused though. My parents think I'm sick with the stomach flu, but I don't know if it's that. I missed my *ehem* three weeks ago, annnndddd I don't really know why. I KNOW I'm not pregnant, unless I'm pregnant with Jesus. I think my ovaries are rebeling. Pretty much sucks.

Jaa Mata

Happy Birthday Dad <3

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JUST SNOW ALREADY >8O

Boo, I woke up this morning with the hope for 6-10 inches of snow on the ground. Well! All I see are a lot of puddles, and a lot of green grass. BOO! I WANT SNOW! Christmas isn't Christmas WITHOUT SNOW!

So, Mother Nature, will you please get to it?

Thanks 8D



SEE! GREEN! LIGHT! NO WHITE!

Oh hey look, theres my dad! Haha! Aww.. I guess you can't see him. Oh well.

And yes... I took it through the window. It's still cold outside :[

{[{[{[JAA MATA!]}]}]}

25 days of Christmas has begun today. Another year is almost over. That's slightly frightening.

Today we had a snow day, although it was more of an ice day. I'm glad we did because I really didn't want to go today. After my near break down yesterday, I wasn't sure if I could have faced people. Ellie and Olivia came by yesterday to see how I was doing. I don't know why, but I felt slightly annoyed. It's not as though they did anything to upset me, but I just wanted someone to blame everything on. Everything is catching up to me again, it seems to be like this every year. I keep telling myself that I can get through it, and I'm making way too big of a deal out of it all. I know that. I've realized that. But, sometimes everything gets too hard to deal with all at once. I've turned into a person that can only take so much, and I'm near an overload. That just can't be a good sign.

I don't even have a best friend. :[ Or at least not anymore if there ever had been that time. I bet I screwed that up too. Maybe I'm just not "best friend" material. Just backround friend only.

So I still haven't found a job. Even Felpaush won't hire me. Maybe I'm filling out the applications wrong. Or I've been putting the wrong phone number everytime. I told my mom I was about ready to turn to prostitution. Not that anyone would want me anyway, but it was just a thought.

I have a feeling Christmas is going to be pretty pointless this year. I know it's not about the presents and gifts, but I would like to get SOME things. I guess I shouldn't complain, if I can't afford to buy people gifts, then why should they get me something. I was looking forward to it, but not so much now.

Break is soon. Can't wait.

{Jaa Mata}

Gackt-- Last Song
Atemonaku hitori samayoi arukitsuzuketa
Kasuka na toiki o tada shiroku somete
Utsuri kawari yuku kisetsu no sono hakanasa ni
Wake mo naku namida ga koboreta
'Ima mo aishite iru...'

Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete

Wakari aenakute nandomo kizutsuketeita
Sonna toki demo itsumo yasashikute
Fui ni watasareta yubiwa ni kizamareteita
Futari no yakusoku wa kanawanai mama ni
'Ima mo oboeteiru...'

Toozakaru omoide wa itsumademo mabushi sugite
Motto soba ni itakatta
Mou nido to aenai kedo itsumo soba de sasaete kureta
Anata dake wa kawaranai de ite
Saigo ni miseta namida ga kisenakute

Kono shiroi yukitachi to issho ni kiete shimattemo
Anata no kokoro no naka ni zutto saite itai kara

Yorisotte dakiatta nukumori wa wasurenaide ne
Chigau dareka o aishitemo
Saigo ni kiita anata no koe o kono mama zutto hanasanai mama
Fukaku nemuri ni ochitai

Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete
'Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete..'