Well, lately I havn't really had anything to write about, not really inspirational or big major thoughts. I can't write about all the hard times I would be having at school, or the annoying little girls that run around with their thongs past their belly buttons. Life is dull. My summer life is the barn, and horses. I have no friends that I keep in touch with over the summer, since now I really can't stand them. Yup... exciting.
Well, yesterday was my first horse show of the year. By the time it was over with I wanted to hang myself after cutting off every single toe and finger I had. I don't think I have ever had a worse day in my entire life. I'm not really going to get into it, but by the end of it I had broken down in the barn rocking back and forth in tears.
Jessica came out yesterday though to watch me. I was really surprised about that, it really meant a lot that she came. I've really noticed I get along with people that are older than me. Most of my friends are 3-5 years older than me, and when Jessica showed up it really showed me she thought of me as a good friend even though of our 5 year age difference.
Frannie should be getting back from nationals soon. I really miss her, I hope when she gets back we will be able to hang out.
So yeah.. I probably won't be updating anymore... It just doesn't feel right posting when I read other peoples, and theirs are just so deep and they actually put time into theirs.
Ciao <3
Monday, June 27, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Pshh.,.. Middle Class
Well, I just got this thought in my head and I decided to share it. Exciting.. Nah?
Well I was thinking about life. Not in a depressing way, just in general. I just got really curious about people that some how manage to make themselves known for year and years after their death. How can someone live up to their full potiental? People here try so hard in school to get good jobs and 'succeed' but most of them will be nothing more than middle class citizans with a family and the family dog. How is it that a few of those people actually get to where they want to be? What is it that they have, that the rest of us don't? I was just curious is all, I just find it hard to believe somebody from a small town could actually become known world wide; like our small town... reality.
Wish me luck, I signed up to win Rascal Flatts tickets ^.~
By the way... Sorry for choking some of your dreams <3
Well I was thinking about life. Not in a depressing way, just in general. I just got really curious about people that some how manage to make themselves known for year and years after their death. How can someone live up to their full potiental? People here try so hard in school to get good jobs and 'succeed' but most of them will be nothing more than middle class citizans with a family and the family dog. How is it that a few of those people actually get to where they want to be? What is it that they have, that the rest of us don't? I was just curious is all, I just find it hard to believe somebody from a small town could actually become known world wide; like our small town... reality.
Wish me luck, I signed up to win Rascal Flatts tickets ^.~
By the way... Sorry for choking some of your dreams <3
Saturday, June 18, 2005
O.o
Rawr >.< I have the sudden urge to just WRITE! alkdjalskdj I hate this because everytime I get into this I want to write just a stupid little story, but I can't figure out what to write about. Hmmm... yup see I got nothing. Yeah so I just decided to put this pointless random entry in thats just a little longer than the one earlier haha go me!
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Friday, June 17, 2005
Let me close my eyes... and make it all stop...
Time out... just freeze everything...
The very first full week of summer vacation is coming to an end. But even though it's only the first week it seems like it is just going by at such a rapid speed. I suddenly feel sufficated and overwhelmed with things that I can't even identify. No matter what I do it continues to feel that way. Trying to relax for a day, or getting out and doing somthing it just won't slow down. It is kind of scary, I'm only 15 but in one more year I'll have my drivers licence, then two years after that I'll be out of high school and will be an 'adult.' I guess I'm just afraid of the inevitable, but I mean... everyone is at one point or another right?
'It's a weird world... and it won't slow down...'
My dog Wilson caught a baby bird today. I felt so bad for it, I finally got him to drop it, then I carried it to the backyard. It was shaking and shivering, then it just stared up at me, then it died. I remember when my cat died, I called my grandma for comfort, and I remember her saying somthing about the reason pets were put onto this earth. She said somthing like, "I believe the Lord put them here to prepare us for death. He knew we would become attached to them and feel pain when they passed."
My first show is coming up next Sunday. I don't want to go, showing just doesn't interest me this year. Of course I was basically forced to show, its my parents 'vacation' at the same time as my 'trip to hell.' I hate showing, whats the point of it? So little girls can run around and act prissy cause they just got first and their horse cost them as much as a damned house? No thanks.... I'd rather go on a real vacation.
Early today was fun though. Went out to the barn and rode, then hung out with Jessica for half the afternoon. Her mom bought us pizza because we cleaned the barn for her. I'm so jealous of Jessica because she gets to have a pen-pal from Iraq. She signed up for this program where it assigns one person to a soldier of the opposite sex around the same age. Her guy's name is Alex, he sounds so awsome. She's sent him a bunch of letters, and a few boxes of things. I really hope that they meet, and maybe afterward become good friends... or more ^.~ I really do hope so, Jessica deserves a good man. (She's so going to kill me if she reads this... Hmm.. To bad her computer isn't hooked up cause shes moving.. Muah!)
'There's reason for looking up when I'm feeling down...'
Ciao <3
The very first full week of summer vacation is coming to an end. But even though it's only the first week it seems like it is just going by at such a rapid speed. I suddenly feel sufficated and overwhelmed with things that I can't even identify. No matter what I do it continues to feel that way. Trying to relax for a day, or getting out and doing somthing it just won't slow down. It is kind of scary, I'm only 15 but in one more year I'll have my drivers licence, then two years after that I'll be out of high school and will be an 'adult.' I guess I'm just afraid of the inevitable, but I mean... everyone is at one point or another right?
'It's a weird world... and it won't slow down...'
My dog Wilson caught a baby bird today. I felt so bad for it, I finally got him to drop it, then I carried it to the backyard. It was shaking and shivering, then it just stared up at me, then it died. I remember when my cat died, I called my grandma for comfort, and I remember her saying somthing about the reason pets were put onto this earth. She said somthing like, "I believe the Lord put them here to prepare us for death. He knew we would become attached to them and feel pain when they passed."
My first show is coming up next Sunday. I don't want to go, showing just doesn't interest me this year. Of course I was basically forced to show, its my parents 'vacation' at the same time as my 'trip to hell.' I hate showing, whats the point of it? So little girls can run around and act prissy cause they just got first and their horse cost them as much as a damned house? No thanks.... I'd rather go on a real vacation.
Early today was fun though. Went out to the barn and rode, then hung out with Jessica for half the afternoon. Her mom bought us pizza because we cleaned the barn for her. I'm so jealous of Jessica because she gets to have a pen-pal from Iraq. She signed up for this program where it assigns one person to a soldier of the opposite sex around the same age. Her guy's name is Alex, he sounds so awsome. She's sent him a bunch of letters, and a few boxes of things. I really hope that they meet, and maybe afterward become good friends... or more ^.~ I really do hope so, Jessica deserves a good man. (She's so going to kill me if she reads this... Hmm.. To bad her computer isn't hooked up cause shes moving.. Muah!)
'There's reason for looking up when I'm feeling down...'
Ciao <3
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Life is good...
Mmm.... Bliss.... right now it seems like nothing could ruin my day...
Well I guess I should tell how the baseball game went. It was fun; Kerry and I had such a fucking blast. First it was kind of sprinkling, but neither of us wanted to carry the unbrella so we just went without. But of course right when we got into the stand it started pouring. Haha, I had a jacket with a hood, but Kerry was sitting there in this little sweater and a skirt. It was hilarious. After screaming about wanting to slip and slide on the big tarp in the middle of the field we went up to dry off, but ended up stealing her dads unbrella and sitting back down there. But once we got back down there, there were these two chicks that were sitting in our seats, so we sat next to them and kept making annoying noises. We could hear them whispering like, "Oh my gawd! What freaks! You tell them to shut up! No you tell them!" So then I'm like "Ohhhh My Gawd! OOOOOOH MY GAWWDD!" it was great, we were screaming and yelling and annoying the hell out of them. LOL ok these two chicks were scary, one was a midget and her friend was a witch. What a pair.. ^.~
After the game started like an hour late, we harassed all of the other teams players. There was this guy that was standing close to us and Kerrys like, "Why do they have such big butts?" and I said, "I dunno... but don't they look like... Girl Butts?" Then when they were up to bat we would be like, "Number 9.... Number nineorunooo... Number 9 is NOT fine." We were laughing and saying we were gonna get attacked by the players.
Hmm.. Well, today was cool. Got up early; Jessica picked me up and we went out to the barn. We would have been done so early but we stopped to talk for about an hour. Exciting is it not?
Yup then I drove to meijers to get this English Jacket fitted, in the process I got violated by a short japanese man. Bought two CDs. You'll never guess which ones! Muah.
Mom says I drive to fast, but then again I was going 70 in a 55 O.o but thats beside the point.
So on our curve into our street I went really slow cause she was yelling at me, then floored it (and our house was lik 50 feet away)... Yup I got yelled at, she was more concerned about me scaring the neighbors haha.
So yeah, I'm in a pretty good damn mood so I'm just going to relax tonight cause I don't have to work tomorrow. Hell yes for summer vacation.
'Close your eyes make a wish... This could last forever'
Until another day.
Ciao ^.~
Well I guess I should tell how the baseball game went. It was fun; Kerry and I had such a fucking blast. First it was kind of sprinkling, but neither of us wanted to carry the unbrella so we just went without. But of course right when we got into the stand it started pouring. Haha, I had a jacket with a hood, but Kerry was sitting there in this little sweater and a skirt. It was hilarious. After screaming about wanting to slip and slide on the big tarp in the middle of the field we went up to dry off, but ended up stealing her dads unbrella and sitting back down there. But once we got back down there, there were these two chicks that were sitting in our seats, so we sat next to them and kept making annoying noises. We could hear them whispering like, "Oh my gawd! What freaks! You tell them to shut up! No you tell them!" So then I'm like "Ohhhh My Gawd! OOOOOOH MY GAWWDD!" it was great, we were screaming and yelling and annoying the hell out of them. LOL ok these two chicks were scary, one was a midget and her friend was a witch. What a pair.. ^.~
After the game started like an hour late, we harassed all of the other teams players. There was this guy that was standing close to us and Kerrys like, "Why do they have such big butts?" and I said, "I dunno... but don't they look like... Girl Butts?" Then when they were up to bat we would be like, "Number 9.... Number nineorunooo... Number 9 is NOT fine." We were laughing and saying we were gonna get attacked by the players.
Hmm.. Well, today was cool. Got up early; Jessica picked me up and we went out to the barn. We would have been done so early but we stopped to talk for about an hour. Exciting is it not?
Yup then I drove to meijers to get this English Jacket fitted, in the process I got violated by a short japanese man. Bought two CDs. You'll never guess which ones! Muah.
Mom says I drive to fast, but then again I was going 70 in a 55 O.o but thats beside the point.
So on our curve into our street I went really slow cause she was yelling at me, then floored it (and our house was lik 50 feet away)... Yup I got yelled at, she was more concerned about me scaring the neighbors haha.
So yeah, I'm in a pretty good damn mood so I'm just going to relax tonight cause I don't have to work tomorrow. Hell yes for summer vacation.
'Close your eyes make a wish... This could last forever'
Until another day.
Ciao ^.~
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Ha... Ha... Borderline...
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mvURL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html
Ooph...... Hmm.. Well at least I'm not obsessive-compulsive *Cough*BECCA*Cough*
^.~
Monday, June 13, 2005
Ewww Becca...!
AND THIS WEEK IN BECCA FABULOUS LIFE!!!!!! BECCA GETS MOLESTED BY A TOAD!
BlackSecretGone: DUDE
BlackSecretGone: omg I have the most scariest thing to tell you!!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: WHATS THAT!?
BlackSecretGone: omg
BlackSecretGone: ok
BlackSecretGone: *deep breath*
BlackSecretGone: haha
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: lol
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: *sits with mouth open waiting*
BlackSecretGone: *holds Hilar's suspense*
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: *waits*
BlackSecretGone: haha
BlackSecretGone: ok
BlackSecretGone: the other day my siblings caught a pet toad... and we kept him in a bowl in our bathroom right...
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: uh huh
BlackSecretGone: and so I was taking a shower
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: lol omg
BlackSecretGone: and all of a sudden I look over and there's the toad staring at me and I think he was in...
BlackSecretGone: THE MATING POSITION!!!!!!!!!
BlackSecretGone: I was so scared!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: LMAO!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: ROFLMAO!!!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA ROFLMAO ROFLMAO ROFLMAO
BlackSecretGone: OMG
BlackSecretGone: I was like "OMG IM GONNA GET MOLESTED BY A TOAD!"
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: LOL!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: OMG ROFLMAO
BlackSecretGone: omg !!!
BlackSecretGone: that story is profile bound
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: blog bound
BlackSecretGone: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BlackSecretGone: *jumps in air* I GOT RAPED BY AN AMPHIBIAN!
STAY TUNED FOR NEXT WEEK!! BECCA WILL GET MOLESTED BY A GRASSHOPPER!!
~Hilary and Kerrys All-time-fabulous baseball game next post~
RAWR
BlackSecretGone: DUDE
BlackSecretGone: omg I have the most scariest thing to tell you!!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: WHATS THAT!?
BlackSecretGone: omg
BlackSecretGone: ok
BlackSecretGone: *deep breath*
BlackSecretGone: haha
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: lol
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: *sits with mouth open waiting*
BlackSecretGone: *holds Hilar's suspense*
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: *waits*
BlackSecretGone: haha
BlackSecretGone: ok
BlackSecretGone: the other day my siblings caught a pet toad... and we kept him in a bowl in our bathroom right...
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: uh huh
BlackSecretGone: and so I was taking a shower
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: lol omg
BlackSecretGone: and all of a sudden I look over and there's the toad staring at me and I think he was in...
BlackSecretGone: THE MATING POSITION!!!!!!!!!
BlackSecretGone: I was so scared!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: LMAO!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: ROFLMAO!!!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA ROFLMAO ROFLMAO ROFLMAO
BlackSecretGone: OMG
BlackSecretGone: I was like "OMG IM GONNA GET MOLESTED BY A TOAD!"
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: LOL!
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: OMG ROFLMAO
BlackSecretGone: omg !!!
BlackSecretGone: that story is profile bound
xXCrimsonEnvyXx: blog bound
BlackSecretGone: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BlackSecretGone: *jumps in air* I GOT RAPED BY AN AMPHIBIAN!
STAY TUNED FOR NEXT WEEK!! BECCA WILL GET MOLESTED BY A GRASSHOPPER!!
~Hilary and Kerrys All-time-fabulous baseball game next post~
RAWR
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Lugnutz game FIRST ROW!
Yay. For. Summer. It. Is. Finally. Here. Praise. The. Lord. I. No. Longer. Have. To. Go. Or. At. Least. For. 3. Months.
Weee I am now a sophmore! Three more years until I'm out of high school and I get to go to COLLEGE. Yup well the last day of school sucked. I failed my geometry final, then went to art and sat for and hour and a half. But everyone was like toatlly ignoring me that day and I was just like well wtf? Then they were talking about somthing and I was like "well what happened?!" and then Olivia comes up and was like "Oh my god I can't believe you missed it! It was so funny and Hilarious! I can't believe you havn't heard!" and I was just like "Shut the fuck up you bitch." And she just looked at me. Stupid fucking whores I hope erm... bad things.... which will not be mentioned in my blog.
On a lighter note... I get to go to the Lugnutz game with Kerry tonight! Wee! First row!! Yeah she was bummed cause they didn't get box seats but I was like "Uh...! You got 1st row seats!!" Silly spoiled Kerry. Yeah, we figured out we only call each other to make stupid noises. Its pretty great.
Well I guess I'm done cause Kerry's on her way so I'll post later ^-^
Chow
Weee I am now a sophmore! Three more years until I'm out of high school and I get to go to COLLEGE. Yup well the last day of school sucked. I failed my geometry final, then went to art and sat for and hour and a half. But everyone was like toatlly ignoring me that day and I was just like well wtf? Then they were talking about somthing and I was like "well what happened?!" and then Olivia comes up and was like "Oh my god I can't believe you missed it! It was so funny and Hilarious! I can't believe you havn't heard!" and I was just like "Shut the fuck up you bitch." And she just looked at me. Stupid fucking whores I hope erm... bad things.... which will not be mentioned in my blog.
On a lighter note... I get to go to the Lugnutz game with Kerry tonight! Wee! First row!! Yeah she was bummed cause they didn't get box seats but I was like "Uh...! You got 1st row seats!!" Silly spoiled Kerry. Yeah, we figured out we only call each other to make stupid noises. Its pretty great.
Well I guess I'm done cause Kerry's on her way so I'll post later ^-^
Chow
Saturday, June 04, 2005
WEEEEEEE!
YAY! Drivers training. I drove for the 1st time today, didn't die. I did sorta get pulled over lol! Ok, well I was pulling out getting ready to drive home cause Mr. Nox wanted to know If I wanted to. So I was going towards the bridge, and this cop pulls up behind me, and his lights were on. Well we had just seen him across the street earlier, so I was like, "Do I have to pull over..? What is he doing?" But Mr. Nox uses his little break to stop me, and it wasn't my fault he used it so it doesnt count! But anyway, the cops stop behind us, then go around and drive off. I was like well what the fuck! The one day I drive they don't go on a 24 hour donut run...
So yeah! Watch out! One more drive with him and I get my pink slip Muah!!!
So yeah! Watch out! One more drive with him and I get my pink slip Muah!!!
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