Sure to go to Hell

This is the longest week in eternity...

Well, this morning started out alright; got 100 on my global studies test, then went to second hour and we got our research papers back. I ended up with 190/200, I thought it was pretty good, but I ended up being really disappointed in myself, everyone else around me got 193, or 198 or ever 200/200. Of course Kate got 200; that girl always gets full points on everything she does, but for some reason today it just made me feel really upset, and jealous. Everytime somthing like that happens, I usually take it fine, but I was really surprised when I got really resentful of her; soon after I began to feel guilty and couldn't look her in the eyes. I suppose there's nothing to be ashamed about, I'm just human, even I can get jealous of the perfect girl...

Man if I wasn't already feeling bad, by this time I felt about ten times worse. We were on the bus going home, and there's this little kid, and I think hes got some kinda of retardation (I feel so bad saying that), but he also had these eyebrows that stick up really far. Well he came and sat in the back of the bus with us all, and everyone was making fun of him. I was laughing along, but when I got off, that little twinge of guilt came back and attacked me full blown. I just stopped and was like.. "I can't believe I just laughed at him.." I feel like such a hypocrite, when I was little everyone used to make fun of me, and I hated it; here I am now... making fun of this little kid for somthing he can't help. I think tomorrow I'm going to sit with him, and try to be really nice and friendly; today everyone was making fun of him and he didn't even realize it at the time, but I just have that feeling he's going to figure it out later.

TGTF! Horseshow Saturday, oh boy, oh boy! Get to leave at 6am! Can't wait..

Ciao