Why can't I just let go?

Today is the last day of finals. My last day of Internet Web Design.

Lately I've had a lot on my mind. Everything is so scrambled up, and I feel like nobody really wants to listen. I hate keeping things to myself because in the end everything always seems to build up.

Once again I am in the same boat as before. The other night I just continued to ask myself, why? Why is it I keep thinking about these things? Why can't I just move on and forget? I tried. I forgot. I let go. With just one smile, it all came back. I hate how easily he makes my walls crumble. The walls it took me so long to build up, and keep closed. Clitche I know, but thats basically what happened. How can I just let go? Let go of what will never be there, or never could be. I hate this feeling. Longing, and hope. It so pointless to think about, but I can't get it out of my mind.

I was thinking earlier; what would I wish for if I could have one wish. Any wish that I wanted. What would I wish for? True love? Money? Peace? Immortality? To live in a fairy tale? When I acutally thought about it, I couldn't come up with a wish. It makes me think about how many times I've said "I wish" but not really mean it. Where if I had that one wish, I would have wasted it on somthing so meaningless.

Just some depressing thinking. I've had those on my mind for a while.

Ciao.