Ick..

No everyone I promise I didn't die. I just definitely havn't felt like updating.

Anyway, I'm sitting here in first hour, and I am completley bored out of my mind. We have to work on this stupid project, and I got my partners picked for me because I was sick. Well... I got stuck with the two people I would NEVER choose. Preps. I love how when I ask a question I always get the small muffled answer. It continues to amaze me how they give me the smallest amount of work to do because they don't think I can handle a lot. I wasn't aware I was retarded... So yesterday I blew them off and skipped first hour. I thought it was kind of funny but whatever.

Things have just been going I guess. Nothing exciting ever really happens to me. Mom is working Saturdays, dad isn't doing anything. I havn't seen Eric in days. I'm almost ready to give up riding horses, because I will never be as good as I want to be. I hate how people think I'm not going to be able to train my new horse. I hate how they always look at me like I made a mistake in buying him. I will get it in my head that I will show them, but then I always back down in the end. Will has a lot of potential, nobody sees that except me.

I am about ready just to quit everything I have ever pushed for. Just go out, and get a stupid department store job. Then sit at home.

That's what I want.