The forecast reads: May BIRTHUATION!

Ok! Fine! I'll update!

Let me list everything that happened.

-Went to HOSA states. Nate and I killed our baby. :[
-Went to a lugnutz game with Kerry and Nikki.
*Johnny molested my eyes as he rubbed his ass
*Kerry became Poe's number one fan <-- t-shirts?
*We met a big guy in green, his friend 'Makeawish,' and a few others
*They thought we were 21. WRONG.
-Decided to actually start doing things in school
-Wasted my days on a crappy job
-Haven't had time to go to the gym
-Self esteem dropped a lot
-Got Leo to buy icecream
-Rode Will for the first time since the move, and almost died
*Almost killed the cause of the almost death
-Help put up poles for pastures at Jessica's house
-Began planning a Birthuation for Kerry and I
-Skipped school a lot
-Had Saturday school due to skippage
*Got donuts and coloring books with Brie
-Got my hair did. WEWT!
-Sat here trying to remember what I did since the 12th.

There ya go; my entire month of activities all neatly typed for your lovely eyes to read. Pretty sweet, yes?

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So once again I find myself at the end of another suicidal person. How is it I always seem to be the one people go to for this? Do they not realize I'm not the best person to talk to about this? It makes me angry, mainly because they just sound so ridiculous and stupid when they try to make it sound like their life is probably the worst thing in the world. Get over it. Sure things get rough sometimes, and everyone has their moments but LISTEN to youself! YOU have the decision to either change your life piece by piece, which will take time, or sit and rot and just give up on everything. "Why bother?" Because you have people that care about you, and you're too stupid to realize that. What a waste, I think, to pull through for 20 years then to suddenly just call it quits. That's what I think is a loser; a failure. You're only a loser or a failure when you give up and give in. You have to fight for what you want out of life, but it's obvious he hasn't learned that yet. Nothing is handed to you-- where would be the fun in that?

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My 17th birthday is in two days! YAAY! YAAYAYAYAYAAAY!! I will be able to drive after 12am WOOO! Even though my parents don't let me stay out that long anyway.. but.. WOO!

Kerry and I are planning a Birthuation-- a combination of my birthday and her graduation. So far we have about 40 people on the guest list, and we're trying to plan everything out. Planning parties is kind of hard, but I'm so excited for it. I really hope everything turns out well, and people have fun.

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Ok. Sleep time I guess.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!

Ciao.