Non-social loser >.<

The last few days have been pretty packed. I say that, yet I find myself sitting here typing this.

This week started out normal as usual. Yesterday was my first day back after being sick for about a week. I get to school and I see Emily walking up to the school and I run up behind her and push on the back of her backpack. Well.. apparently I did somthing 'earlier' that pissed her off, cause she just completley ignored me. I think she said two words to me that morning. I don't understand what's going on with people latley, they've all got it on their minds that their better than other people, people they've been friends with for a while, and decide to ignore them. I hate drama, I honestly do; and in the past two days that's all that there has been and it's really annoying.

This morning, Emily didn't talk to me, she said a few things but I didn't understand them because she was walking away from me at the time. Olivia and I didn't really talk either. Yeah, I've become the non-social loser. I don't know if it's me that is making these people not talk to me; like I'm infected with the plauge or their all just pmsing. I'm so tired of it, I would just rather sit in the art room all day, or at home reading a book.

This morning when I was walking to the bus stop, I passed by a man and his dog, the first thing he said to me was "Good morning" of course I said it back to him. The weird thing was, that actually ment somthing to me; never have I had someone say that to me and actually have me thinking it is a good day, and it's good to be alive. I couldn't understand why this one man, someone whom I had never seen in my life had had such an impact on me. I had to just smile to myself, because even though it was cloudy and rainy, and my friend's are completley ignoring me; it was a good morning and it was a good day.

When I was at 4-H tonight, Katie said tomorrow is the first day of lent. I was thinking about that on the way home. I wonder what I should give up; maybe I should give up socializing, seeing how it aint working for me at the moment. Or I could give up sweets, or give up procrastination (if that counts...). I think I'll probably have to sleep on it and think about it tomorrow.

Well, I'm pretty much done for tonight, I've got a bunch of homework I got to do before I go read some of my new book that just came in! Adios for now!

..:: Sheryll, your in my prayers; stay safe <3 ::..