Social Plauge has infected me

I don't even know why I write in this thing, I mean nobody even reads it, and when someone does read it they really don't want too.

Life went from, really good, to okay, to a little shaky, to gettin bad, to ungodly bad. It may just be me complaining about my life; where if I actually take a step out of my own little mind prison, I would see things arent that bad. But at the moment, I'm not capiable of stepping out of my solitary confinement, I have been so utterly used it's unbelievable; people truly are selfish and will do whatever they can to get some of the thing's they want. How about I break it down...

My once good 'friends' are no longer considered friends in my book. I was just once their entertainment and amusment for that time being. Once they got tired of me they pretty much just dropped me, gee thanks guys. The only thing I did was help them with their little life problems, listened to them when they complained or were upset and stood by them like a good friend. Then, they fucking ignore me, act bitchy around me and really couldn't give a shit about me. Thanks to them, I now do not trust people; yes I may be taking this a little over board but I don't care at the moment.

Theres a girls that I know (no names will be said), and she is going out with this one guy. Well they've broken up twice already, the second time he quickly flocked to a quite whorish girl. Every problem they had she would come to me and ask for some of my advice. Of course I gave it to her, I mean were friends; friends listen to each other right? Wrong. I sat there and told her what he was going to do; of couse they got back together, even though I told her she should stay single for a while, or check out her options; in my opinion she's too young to put her heart out on the line for someone, who she cant see, see's her for her body and easy personality. Everything I have told that girl apparently goes in one ear and out the other. "Why don't you ask another one of your friends?" I asked her once, "Cause your the only one who listens..." Hmm, is that so?! If you want to be listened to so bad, maybe you should take some of my advice.

I'm so tired of going to school, I desperatly need a break. Yeah, I did figure it out; I'm infected with the plague. Obviously the 'Stay-away-from-me-I'm-a-loser-that-has-no-friends-and-couldnt-find-her-way-out-of-a-plastic-bag plauge' (Even though I would probably try to seal the damn plastic bag and stay there). I told my mom when we got home from the barn that I was going to go buy a plane ticket, parachute down to a forgotten island, live there with a bag full of years and years of supplies and just stay there. Of course she laughed at me, who doesn't now days, and told me I would miss everyone. HA! I would throw myself a fucking party, build a huge ass fire and dance around it like some crazy savage. Screw people, people are what hurt people and make them feel like shit, not being stranded on an island to sulk in your own plauge.