"I'm lying to myself and this daggers my excuse."

Ugh.. I need a vacation...

I've come up with a plan. Jessica Whitehurst and I are going to fly to Australia for a really long vacation, then were going to meet some hot aussies and have a party. But then when things seem to be going fabulous, it's going to get even better. Well, Keith Urban is just going to... show up and were going to tie him up and bring him home. So how does that sounds? Lying on the beach all day, watching hot aussies surf and run around in swim trunks... That's what I call a vacation.

Anyway, eight more weeks of school left. I can't wait until this school year ends, I think I'm going to throw a huge party and invite like everyone over. Well no... I'll just sit and home and do nothing. Yeah that sounds like the ideal thing to do, people are annoying... No party for them.

Well, I started a new bad habit. I know I probably shouldn't be putting this in here but I don't want to put it in my one in my room. For about two months now, I don't know why I do it. For some reason it just seems right, although I know differently. I've only told one person, and I'm glad I did because now, it may sound stupid, but it feels like I have the strength to stop it. But I still get the feeling, where my body just... just wants it. It's hard though.. you know... trying to hide somthing from people you care about. I think that's why I'm putting this in here, I'm too afraid to tell my friends face to face so when they read this they can understand, or at least know whats happening.

Okay, well I guess I'm done whining.

One more day Calvin! Till the big 1-7!

Later dayz