Over Dramatics

Wow having too much free time is beginning to suck..

You know you have a horrible life when you are constantly thinking of the pros and cons of the smallest things. Not even always pros and cons but the 'what ifs'. Ugh.. I'm constantly thinking of those damned What Ifs. I like this one kid, and we will just call him Bob for now (haha original is it not?). Anyway Bob sometimes rides our bus home, and hes in my bio class. I have a tendency to... look a lot; if he's in the room or walking past me I look, everytime. I think that Bob has began to notice these.. 'looks' and is starting to look also. But then I get that feeling like, Oh well okay maybe I won't be a loner the rest of my life. As time goes on I begin to think about it more, and the what ifs start to appear. For instance; What if he thinks I'm annoying, or stupid because I keep looking at him. Or; What if the reason he didn't walk with me and Amber is because he wanted to ask her somthing..? >.< I hate that, I like to tell myself I don't care, and whatever he thinks if bullshit to me, but I always end up questioning myself...

The worse feeling ever, is the feeling where you know theres somthing you'll never find out. I'm really just left in the dust completley; before I wanted to not care... I told myself to hell with them. But even then I never noticed that tiny thought in the back of my head... Just wondering or questioning my actions. Man... I need a vacation, or to learn to 'clear my mind'. Haha, or just get somthing to do...

Ciao... or Chow (I'll make it easy just for you Beccar's haha ^-^)

My new, FULL, name is: Hooked on Phonics Naughty Toes Long Thumb...
(Haha yes to first hour)