I lied

I know I said that I wasn’t going to post anymore, but I think I lied. Writing in this blog really helps get a few things off my mind, and it’s the easiest way of telling someone your feelings; without actually telling them.

Throughout my posts, I’ve constantly complained about people’s relationships and how they always talk about someone from the opposite sex. Lately that is one of the main things that have been plaguing my own mind. I hate being a hypocrite and for once I am able to say I have been one, but my emotions are just so mixed and confusion and desire have settled and made themselves at home much to my own discomfort. Sometimes the emotions I have no idea about come at me full power and I’m over whelmed with the feeling just to have someone there. I know I probably sound like just a stupid little school girl that has nothing better to do then complain about not being in any sort of relationship; oh but wait... I am just a stupid little school girl.

Even after typing that I still get a bit of uneasiness, I always continue to think that I’m going to say something and people are going to look down upon me for it. I try to be strong and I try to just discard the feelings and emotions I have, but they always come back to haunt me. I realize you are probably lost by now, but don’t worry I am as well.

Well once again I’ve had my heart stepped on, and once again I keep it to myself. I’ve had such strong feeling for this guy, I’ve told him, and he told me he felt the same. I hate being naïve, thinking something would actually work out for me, when I try my hardest not to be. Anyway, this guy and I are close friends, and we have been for along time. We trust each other, to keep secrets, to help through tough times, basically with the things that would eat us alive if we didn’t tell someone. The hardest thing for me is no matter how much I help him, or how I am always there for him… it just doesn’t seem to be the same the other way around.

Sometimes there is just a part of me that wishes for a happy beginning.

Don’t worry Kara, I promise I’ll keep writing.


I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

You are the air that I breath.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.