So today was the funeral. I can't really put it all into words... except how much I am going to miss my aunt. I'm going to miss getting to know her all over again. Miss knowing her when she was finally happy. Miss the woman she had always wanted to become. The service was very emotional, and the after feeling is really upsetting.
When I got home all of it sunk in and now I'm stuck feeling sick. Sick and emotional; emotional and upset. I need a shoulder to lean at the moment, but I can't seem to find any. I can't help but wanting to be selfish and have somebody say, "I'm sorry," and try to make me feel better. I want someone to help me right now. I want that person to lean on. But of course, I have no one. It upsets me more to know there is no one I want to lean on.
Tonight I want to cry. Tonight I want to crawl into bed, and just die. I don't want the world to see me, and I don't want them to hear me. I just want to be alone. Just alone.
R.I.P. Mary Beth Flayer. You will be missed.
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