Happy for once.

Things are going okay, but things aren't going too great. What do you call that? Neutral? Just there? Or things are just... going? We'll go with that.

Things are just going.

At the highschool I find myself completely stressed out mainly because I feel like I don't have time to do everything I need to do in a day. Human Bio. is kicking my ass to say the least. I'm border line failing FST, and English is just annoying. I have a big test tomorrow in Human Bio. and I haven't studied at all... go me.

I have noticed something really horrible developing about myself. I'm turning into one of those girls that I just HATE! I'm constantly gossiping about people, and talking behind their backs. It's disgusting! I'm trying to watch myself and what I say around people, because that's not cool at all. I hate it when people do that to me, so what gives me the right to do it to them?

The Career Center has been... amusing-- to a point. There's this kid from Webberville and he is one creepy kid. Last Friday he was staring mindlessly down my shirt, and constantly making sexual innuendos to me. Then when we were getting off he decided he was going to ram his little duffle bag thing into my butt. I mean comon... Once is an accident. Twice begins to get awkward. Three times or more, and this kid is a pervert. THEN! Crystal and Kyle were fighting at the door, so I couldn't get in, and this kid was behind me. Any reasonable (or non-retarded) person would have STOPPED behind me... not kept going untiiiiiiil they were practically molded up from behind me.

I panicked- to say the least.

I elbowed him so incredibley hard in the stomach, and basically ran in the door behind Scott (He's in my Health Occ class-- cool kid). Throughout the class I developed an anxiety attack and got a horrible migrane and almost passed out. It wouldn't have been such a big deal if this kid wasn't so huge! He's the size of my older brother, but squished. If he wasn't the kind of kid I would be afraid of raping me in a dark alley way when I'm walking home on a cold night, I would of just called him a bitch and hit him. But... I didn't want to get shot. I swear he is going to bring a gun to school.

There is an upside to this whole Career Center thing though. I find myslef infatuated with one of my fellow classmates. He really isn't my type to begin with... kinda... but he has got the most gorgeous eyes, and when he talks to me he holds my eyes and doesn't stare at my chest. I like talking to him, a lot. Now.. if only he was taller :[ still really cute though. He overheard what Crystal and I were saying about the Webberville kid, and kept telling me he and Nate would rough him up if he didn't leave us alone. I couldn't help but smile when he said that. Haha I can't help but smile now when I think about him. I can't NOT smile when I talk to him. It's embarassing. But he's so cute!! Ahh! Infatuation. I love it.

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I like being happy. I think it fits me.