Time

Is Christmas here yet?

Ahh! School is driving me insane! I remember at the beginning of the year, I kept thinking this was going to be one of the best years we would have in high school. That thought, or hope, has quickly become crushed. We have a year and a half left of high school. Left with the people we have grown up with for almost 12 years now. I don't know about anyone else, but I'm hella scared to leave. Not only that but I feel like my group of friends is breaking apart. I know people change, but I wanted all of us to be there when graduation came. I feel so hopeless when it comes to this, and I feel like an idiot when I think back and thought we would all still be great friends till the end. It's just like the saying goes: good things must always come to an end.

I've become so terrified of leaving high school. A year and a half. Thats it. I have no idea what I want to do; where I want to go. I haven't the slightest idea where I want life to take me. The only thing I've settled on is that I want to travel. I want to go out and see the world, and go everywhere I can. That's all I've got so far. It stresses me out, and recently it's like everyone is focusing on the future. I don't want to worry about the future, I just want to worry about now! I'm so afraid of failing, and I'm so afraid of not going anywhere in my life time. Why does it seem like I'm the only one worrying about this?

Time is scary.

Jaa Mata...