How far would one go to make a friend feel good about themself? Is it okay to lie to them, when you know the truth will only hurt their feelings? Are friends always telling each other the truth? If they always do, then why does it feel like mine are lying to me?
So today my mom and I were just sitting and watching TV. I was whining and complaining because my cramps are eating ulcers into the lining of my stomach, and out of the blue mom goes, "You should try plus size modeling." HUH?! Where the hell did that come from? I laughed of course, what a stupid idea. You have to be pretty to be a model, even the plus size models don't look plus size. I thought she was kidding, but apparently she wasn't. I got the whole, "Do you know what my friends say about you at work? You're so beautiful, and you're the only person who doesn't see that!"
I hate when people say that to me.
It's hard to thing of yourself as pretty or beautiful when you haven't ever been. I'm the girl that never gets a second look from anyone. The one who trys her hardest to look nice, but is never pretty enough.
I was talking to my friends about it, cause I thought they would get a good laugh out of it as well. But they all keep telling me that I should do it. Sure usually when someone says that they are just being nice because they don't want to hurt their feelings. Why can't I just trust what they say, and believe them?
I'm just afraid to be laughed at :[
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Hilary, Darling, I envy your hair. If I saw you and your perfect hair in a magazine I would think, "bitch!" and then throw the magazine on the floor. Only to pick it up later and take it to a hairdresser so they can totally not do it right.
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